Scared and need advice

[ClingingToHope]

Has anyone ever gone completely dark for a month or longer and if so, did you feel better or worse over time? I ask because I am feeling worse. He was here today, again w no communication, to pick up some mail & clothes. It would be pointless to contact him as I remind myself that if he wanted to talk to me he would be. I am annoyed with myself because why do I miss someone who would treat me so crappy? I think that's how I need to look at it. I am going to try to "choose" to feel happy not crappy, & see how it works!

I'm trying to go as completely dark as possible, but it's hard with two kids. Still, the less I see my W the better I feel.

Trust me, going dark is hard at first but gets better with time. It's when I see W or talk to her that I get knocked back to square one.

I'm only 10 days into LRT so I'll let you know how it goes. This weekend is hard because I have the kids and I'm spending my free moments wondering what she's doing. When I don't do that anymore, I'll know I'm ready to take on the world.