My gal consists of spending time with S, the dogs, breathing, healing, and looking for work. I'm also rediscovering some of my old talents, like cooking, and the way it stirs up warm feelings for me.
Right now, I have no monies.... waiting on a check, while looking for work.
Oh, the letter is Dick's work, his words, his brand of verbal lashing... the signature, shaky, it's his, just four times larger than what used to be. But it is a good thought... for Jane would like to separate Dick from us, I'm sure. In fact Dick talks about how Jane tells him what her son allegedly said as I'm sure she put her own spin on what was delivered to Dick.
You may be right, it may be when I lay low, it irrates Dick, of course, he's not seeing results of his button pushing, then feels a loss of control.... makes sense, but then again, Dick is just irritable... kinda like wearing wool in the Summer.... ;D
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you.........
Oh, had another hang up call today around 4:40p.m. The same as last time.... "Hello" ....pause....... Hello..... pause..... hang up.
Now, I discovered Jane is here in Kansas, in court, having to testify about her income, which I heard she lied, for the paperwork from her job came in to her exs' attorney about an hour after the Hearing, which showed she lied, a $16/hour difference in what she makes and what she stated in court. She has her kids for the weekend, and she will be leaving sometime on Sunday.
Dick should be off today, D should have had school, however, she gets out around 12:30, and has a cell phone, so even with being 2 hours behind me, still gives her enough time to make the call.
D also had a big blow up with her best friend that lives here in KS just last night. Both are deeply hurt, both feeling betrayed, both have shared their feelings on their My Space for me to gather the information. I used to be the one she would come to for comfort and sooth her feelings.....
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you.........
Looks like D and her boyfriend have separated.... So, D is not only fighting with her friend, but her boyfriend.
Now, I don't know if Dick had anything to do with this, or not, but I do know he had a lot to do with D breaking up with her boyfriend from here, who she had dated well over a year.
Dick isolates people, separates them from those they love and need the most.... the problem, it took me until he left to realize what he had been doing to me..... I know D is smart, but lacks the experience to recognize what may be happening.....
I am praying this is the beginning of her return home.....
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you.........
D broke up with her boyfriend in CA? There seems to be a lot of frustration and stress all over that house in CA. Notice I did not call it a home.
I like your GAL stuff. GAL does not = spend money. I think it's doing things that bring you peace, contentment, joy. Sometimes for me that's as simple as listening to the horses munch their hay.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
Yes, I did notice you said house, for there is a big difference between a house and a home......
I hadn't thought about the ambient stress, and all I can say is wow.... you're right, there always was a great deal of stress when Dick was around, even before things went down. The kids and I often talked about it, after his departure, and they both would say how much better things were in our home, even though they missed having a Dad.
Yeah, the rhythmic chew, and how amazing it would sound when a horse would stomp the flies off, I swear I could hear it deep into the earth. I love the smell of horses, well, as long as he/she hadn't been rolling in some soured hay or grass..... I love that musky smell I find around their mane.
But of course, I love the smell of rain washed air, diesel and dirt, as in when the ground is being tilled for the next planting, puppy breath, the way the earth smells around the equinox and the worms are turning the soil and/or leaves in the fall. Babies and clean laundry... Yep, I'm the weirdo in the laundry isle who smells all the laundry detergent and liquid softeners before settling in on a set to buy. And no, I like to have different smell for different parts of the year...... and yes, I know make things more difficult for myself.
I have a whole list of sounds too, like children's laughter, I will stop everything and anything I'm doing, just to suck up every bit of it, for it fills my heart with joy..... and no, I don't have to know the child/children to find it special. Those frogs who sing at night at the earliest signs of Spring.... even though it may be too cool yet to leave my window open, I will, because it's as if they are promising better days ahead.
Ahh well, I could go on, as I'm sure you have your own lists too.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you.........
D came and found me on "Facebook"... she not only sent me a couple of hearts, she joined my "sorority" AND then messaged me back and forth for a while....
I'm as happy as I can be... well, with a D in Cali, who I'd much prefer at home..... hopefully, this means it won't be too much longer before she is.....
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you.........
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
It is sweet! She's looking for me, she even sent a message saying she tried to call, but my phone wouldn't pick up... don't know exactly what that means, but I've been waiting for it to ring, and didn't hear anything. I checked it, it has dial tone and I made sure I hung it up correctly, so maybe tomorrow....
It's been a long two and half months!!!!
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you.........
