Slept with XH, help!!

[Augtan]

Okay, again I appreciate all everyone is saying! But, I never even went into 1. why I moved 2. what I did during my Dbusting 3. how I know I have changed and not for anyone else but ME!!

I moved away because I had no choice, not to punish XH at all. My whole family lives here, we own a company here, we have huge connections here, my XH wasn't helping me, he was letting our house go to foreclosure and I would have had no where to go, I could go on and on, but believe me they were reasons that made it all necessary. He knew the kids would be better off here, he helped me pack the house, load the truck, etc. He could have cared less we were leaving until we were really gone.

When I was still living there and he had moved out (was lying and lying to me that he wasn't with her but deep inside I knew he was)that is when I was doing Dbusting and yes, I think 2 years is a pretty long time to put up with what I put up with!!
I did all it said and I got no results at all. But, I knew I had done enough, changed enough and given it my all, and again...FOR ME. I completely changed the way I reacted to everything in my life, I changed the way I talked to him, treated him, etc. I changed how I handled the kids, the house, our finances, and I am still doing it!! I am not not even close to the person I was before all this and I don't think anyone could be who went thru all this. I am not waiting for him to come home, in fact I don't want him to come home to me. And, yes, I do expect him to move where his kids are after all he put us through and did to us. Am I bitter? Probably a litte and rightfully so!! But, do I show him that (no) and am I working on that (you bet!!). He can move here, he works from home and let our house go, so if it weren't for her he most likely would move here. I don't blame her, totally, at all, he is a grown man who made the choices he did, but something happened when he let her in his life, cause he went for Jeckle to Hyde overnight!!

I slept with him because I wanted to, I never in a million years thought it would make him come back to me!! That was not at all the motive. I felt good afterward and still do. I have had sex with him a thousand times so one more isn't going to be earth-shattering!!

I have to leave work and will edit this when I get home...thanks!