To me it too, it appears you are as confused as he is.
I can’t say don’t move forward. We all have to move forward, but it really does not sound like you have done a lot of the internal work.
How have you changed? Moving was not a change if your reactions are still the same.
DBing is a life change. Not just something you do for a year or two waiting for your S to come home. THAT may never happen.
So IMO, the DBing that you did, was a front. A façade. And when it didn’t work, you ran. I am sorry to be so blunt but…
Real change comes from the inside out. When it is real and true, you can do these things, like moving, GAL, and not expect the results to be a restored marriage and you can still be happy. That is not what you are showing.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
