It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

My problem isn't that I'm contacting over and over. It's that I'm keeping my distance then when SHE initiates contact I do the wrong things. I'm learning, just very slowly and making mistakes along the way. Mistakes that cause too much damage...

I need some way to figure out what the right thing to do is when she does contact. I was half-way intelligent at some point in my life but I am learning how dumb I am in terms of Rs. Funny thing is these mistakes actually teach me a lot. Too bad it's not just spilled milk I'm dealing with.