I am also in dark mode. It does get easier, the first couple of weeks are rough. If you make it harder on yourself , the rollercoaster will be dreadful. Dont expect anything, at all. I backslid, learned my lesson, and stayed dark. Its so hard not to think about them, stay busy. Even if it kills you, and there are times you might think it will. Stay busy anyway. Scrub the kitchen counter, clean the drains, go for a walk. Organize your drawers. Change the oil in your car. ANYTHING to keep your mind off things. You dont have to constantly be going out on the town, esp in this economy. Its unrealistic. Just dont sit around letting your mind wander. When youre having a bad day, vent HERE. It does help. Post as many times as you need to. Just do it here. Not at her or anywhere she will see it or hear it. That pushes them away. I learned that lesson too.
