My issue is that the script hasn't changed AT ALL in 11 months. I am not starting to realize / believe / accept that maybe she is not capable of changing the script. Maybe, she is not capable of taking responsibility for her own life and her own bad decisions. Ever.
(Currently she says the only bad decision she made is agreeing to marry me... )
If this is the case, then I don't want to spend the rest of my life being the scapegoat to someone who can be neither happy nor responsible for their own unhappiness.
I am at the point where (except for my kids) I am ready to file and walk away.
And after a long time of this, I am angry enough to just want her out of my life. GONE.
Alot of anger here spring compresses further. After 11 months i want her to change her script. I want her out. Very controling. You are leting her dictate how you feel and act. Worry-->Fear--->Anger--->---Control
H:37 W:34 D11,S8,S6 Together 19 years M:10 Bomb:4/09
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