As I said before, you have the cognitive info you need. You need more patience and you need to lose the anger. I found Marianne WIlliamson to be helpful in that in her book 'Return to Love". She has others too. I used to listen to them when I'd go on my "anger" walks and she'd calm me down a lot. THEN I'd let h call me if he needed to. Always did those exercises if I thought he'd call.
Have you read The Five Love languages? Your h may need "words of affirmation" and if he does and you aren't verbal about it, then his "bank account" is low or empty...Your h wanted to "brag" to you about his job.
I've been reading these books (along with so many others)and especially like the Return to Love book. I agree that it helps with losing the anger.
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