It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

No OM that I'm aware of. If there were, I'd probably stop all contact. Though I do consider the dating site profile a form of cheating. Where did the OM come from? There seems to be some mixup.

I'm at the point where I feel I need to communicate that I'm not the threat she thinks I am. Detach, yes. I tend to get sucked in by her. There has to be a middle ground, where I can communicate with her without saying "get lost" and yet maintain my distance. I think that's detachment. I'm too close. I can't unlove her as much as I've tried.

My desperation is intermittent and usually the result of her contacting me. That's the problem. I can't just act like a normal person. I screw up and spend all night trying to "fix" my mistakes, leading to too many texts and calls.