Yall are right about the anger. And I was feeling pretty angry today. Tonight went much differently than I thought it would.

I got to D11's performance and sat in the back. W and her mom and sister sat up front. After it was over D11 came down to see them and then spotted me and came up to see me. W's mom ducked out the back door as the rest of them started heading over to me.

Then W said I am welcomed to join them for dinner. Totally shocked me. I said ok. So me, W, and D11 and D7 went to dinner.

We talked about the upcoming holidays. I won't be with them for halloween. But for Thanksgiving they will eat lunch with W's mom and then W and the girls will eat dinner with me. W is going to make the turkey and I will make the rest of the stuff. D11 had told W tonight that we should spend thanksgiving as a family. W said they were going to her moms and I suggested they come to my place for dinner and W agreed.

I apparently get the girls for Christmas. I invited W to come over Christmas morning so we could all open gifts together and eat breakfast together. She said she might just do that. We also discussed D11's birthday and what we are going to do for that.

My BIL is flying in November 14th for a few days so W said that she wants to get together with us for dinner so she can see him. That shocked me to as she knows where he stands with regard to our M. I called BIL to let him know and he said sounds great that he was also hoping to get to see her and spend a bit of time with her to. My guess is that he is probably going to try and talk to her about the situation some. But I have no idea.

So anyways, W asks me if I have gotten health insurance through my staffing agency yet. I said no why? She said she is doing open enrollment and is going to take me off of hers but is going to keep the girls on hers. Ok.

I told D7 that I was going to start showing up to her dance classes on Saturdays when I don't have her also so I could watch her each week. W looked at me funny but said nothing.

So I have some upcoming moments in the next couple of months to try and shine in front of W again.

I was talking to a friend of mine after dinner tonight and of course it came up that I do want my W back. And she looked at me and said I don't want to hear you want your W back. She said I want to hear you say you will win your W back and I want to hear you say it with confidence.

Anyways, that was my evening. Definitely did not turn out how I was expecting it to.

Me and my girls are also looking at getting a maltese dog as well. They are supposed to be excellent companion and apartment dogs.

My W did ask me when my lease was up tonight. It is up at the end of December. I have to put in 60 days notice when I decide to leave. So I am going to be doing some apartment and duplex hunting this Saturday afternoon.

Kevin


Me 36, W 37
M: 08/02/97
D13, D9
1st Bomb 02/08
Reconciled 04/08
2nd Bomb: 09/08
W filed for D 02/04/09
Separated 03/09
D dismissed 06/09/09
Still separated...