Thanks Tristan for the encouragement. I did purchase DR and CNM today. I read about half of CNM already. I am trying very hard to give her space. Feels strange she is across the hall asleep in our bedroom while I am in here in the guest bedroom without her again.
Tonight when she came home I asked her if she was hungry and she said yes. I told her I was thinking about going to the Subway and asked if she would like me to bring her back a sandwich too. She told me what she wanted and I said no problem.
I came back from subway and we sat in the living room and watched some tv. I asked her how her day went and she started talking a lot about work and how thing are going with some new software they are training her office to use. I just sat there and enjoyed listening to her talk about her day. I avoided any R talk because she seemed to be loosening up to me talking about her work.
I asked her if she had any plans for the weekend and she said she wasn't sure yet but one of her gf's asked her to hang out with her one night this weekend. I made a joke and told her I was free this weekend. She knew what I meant I guess because she said she would think about it and is taking it one day at a time.
We are both big Washington Redskins fans and she asked me what I thought about the coaching situation with the Skins and we talked about that a little, then I asked her if she is watching the game on Sunday and she said yes. I didn't push it but I hope that meant she is watching it at home with me like we always do except for last Sunday).
Around 9:30 she asked if I would let the dogs out because it was raining and she did not have her shoes on. I took them out to do their business and then came back in and she said she was going upstairs to go to bed. Here is where I screwed up. I held my arms out and asked if I could at least have a hug goodnight. She only put her hands on my sides and not all the way around me like she usually does. I held her tightly and told her I love her so much (her hair smelled so good). She told me I was pressuring her and to stop. I told her I was sorry and let her go upstairs to bed.
I have no idea what the weekend will be like. I think she will definitely go out with her gf one night (probably to dinner or a happy hour or something). Maybe one night she will consider going to dinner with me and hopefully we can watch the game together on Sunday. I hope I am not getting my hopes up to high.
