It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

And I think I just screwed everything up forever...

She called. It turned into an argument about how lousy I was and I only want to make her feel bad... and how she would just stop telling me anything. I fought back for a change and it got heated. At the peak of being told how much of a loser I was and how everything was my fault I hung up.

Sent a text about how I'm trying not to make her feel bad but if she does maybe it's her guilt. I said I'm tired of being the punching bag and that it's easier to make me the bad guy than deal with her part.

I told her to do what she wants and I don't care, and that "I want you happy but I want me happy too."