Detachment

[ginab1966]

Coach, Puppy, GIMA...all of you. Thank you for this thread. I'm at a really bad place in my M right now and I'm hanging on by a thread. Tonight, I was close to walking downstairs and saying "Can't do this one more second" but I opened up my CoDA books and started reading. I began reading on detachment because I'm finding it so hard to do with my H and I living in the same house. Nothing was clicking...then..low and behold I come on here and find this thread. You all have said more to me in this thread than my CoDA books could have. I think it's because you are real people who are living the detachment...and living through it...thriving even. When I read my CoDA books it seems almost unatainable.

I know, to save myself within this M that is crumbling around my ears and in the face of some horrible emotional torture, I need to detach. Oldtimers been talking to me a lot about it and of course I hear it in my CoDA meeting all the time..."Detach with love. End the emeshment!!"

Thank you all for being here when I needed you most. Today has been the most challenging since June...hands down. I have been so anxious and on pins and needles. I finally feel peaceful I also believe that my God lead me to this post. He always knows better than I what I need. It may not be what I want..but it's always what I need.

Going to bed now..and peacfully sleep.

God bless all of you...Gina B