In fact, if you got hit by a car and died, she'd feel relieved.
I want you to know something about me that I have never told another living soul. This quote above.....could have been said about me. I am so ashamed to know that this was actually in my heart at one time, and I would not admit it to myself....but I would find myself thinking that if my H died, then I could be free without any guilt....and could start a "new" life. Thank God nothing happened to my H. If it had....the guilt would have killed me just knowing that the thought had entered into my mind.
The difference between me and your W is that your W isn't waiting for anything to happen to take you out of this world-- in order for her to get a new life. Do you still want to be attached to a person who would do that to you? I don't know of very many hearts that could be any colder that that of a WAS.
I read a post a few days ago that just did something to me. I wanted to tear into the one who wrote it. He compared a WAW to a murderer. I was horrified and felt very defensive.....but then I read this quote and knew that I was guilty. It is a ugly thing to look deep into a heart that is that selfish!
I am so thankful for "grace" and for second chances. P17, you get out there and become the best man you can be! There is a lady who will appreciate your hard work improving. Focus on being a better man for your next R....whoever that may be.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
