Geez...you guys, I just can't keep up around here anymore!

And, would you all quit throwing the Panic Mojo around lately, because I'm catching it, LOLOL!

I have totally let everthing slide as far as bringing up any R talk time, like I said I was going to. Things have been more than a bit stressful at work lately, and I don't want to be masochistic and add anything else right now.

So....the extent of R talk in the last 3 weeks has been:

Tal: Are you happy?
Wolfie: Yes.
Tal: {waits silently for awhile to see if he has anything else to say, gives up and says...} That's good.

Wolfie: {makes small grumph-grr-grunt noise}

I don't let it get to my PMA though. I have noticed large amounts of affection from H, and occassionally I catch him looking at me with a very sincere smile on his face. That's enough for the time being.

This morning I had a bit of a meltdown, though.
The news has been a big trigger for me the last few days. There's constant mention of Kobe B. I can't help thinking about his poor wife, looking like she was in initial shocked and numb phase of WHAT WE KNOW FEELS LIKE. And then of course the media makes mention often that his wife does not attend or stand by his side at his rape trial. Pure Hillary-C like humilation in the media, right?

Then, of course the Scott Peterson case is heating up and that is being talked about extensively the last few days. "OW (whatever-her-name is) will testify about extensive deception used by Scott Peterson--both in cheating on his wife, and by lying to her about things that now seem suspicious. The news puts up a photo of OW and Laci Peterson with Scott between them.

I thought about Laci Peterson, and how this must make her roll in her grave (figure of speech) but you know--her spirit can't very well be at rest.

And I think about the whole dynamic about her husband lying to her--and betraying her with the OW and then to get rid of Laci like that (yeah-yeah--allegedly, I know).

And then I thought of the things that will probably stick in my mind the longest: those times that I knew in my gut that Wolfie was lying to me about something, and he was lying to me with a small, cruel little smile on his face. All of the sudden it occurred to me that he didn't cheat on me...

...he cheated AT me. There was definately an element of vindictiveness about it, but I don't think he'll ever admit that even to himself.

OK, it gets worse...

I start thinking that Laci Peterson could very well have been on this bb. She could have suspected that her H was having an A. She could have known that her H was having an affair and was trying to DB because she didn't want to lose her marraige and she was pregnant. I remember wondering that very thing when I first started posting on these bb's.

Gruesome, enit? I guess I had a real Steven King moment before I even left for work, LOLOL!

I'm going to have to start leaving the room when Wolfie turns on the news!