Never posted to you before, but following... I think I know where you're at with feeling like you don't want to be around her. For me, it is because it causes too much pain, because I have expectations. Staying away is a defense mechanism to avoid the pain. I'm not sure how it helps things or if it's just the beginning of detachment. I think in the end you've got to feel good about yourself and how you have handled this toughest of situations.
