Well, I caved in and got $100 worth of flowers sent to her work for anniversary. I purposely didn't have a card with them though. She did the polite text message, "Thank you, they are unbelievable...".
I'm actually writing a letter right now that I'm not sure I'm going to give her but it is something she would have wanted me to do for years that I never did and is something she complained about. I never really communicated how I really felt to her for some reason. I may give it to her tonight depending on what happens. We'll be under the same roof for a couple hours and I might as well soak up the time with her while I can before I move out. If I do though, I know I need to back way off after and give her alot of room.
I just can't believe how bad it hurts right now. I feel myself slipping into this horrible depression to a point where I can't even function properly. 5 years today we were married and I'd give anything to do it all over again.
Me: 30 W: 29 D: 20 months M: 5 years T: 6.5 years ILYBNILWY and want to separate: 10/5/2009
