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I can’t give you what you need for a timeline. I can’t make any promises. That’s not fair to you or me. I’m not doing anything but working on myself right now. This is not all about you. It is about ME. There is no one else, no need for any of that. This is MY time. I am doing what I want when I want and how I want. I don’t have the time or patience to want or need someone else. I want to love myself, that’s all.
Enough for today please."


DO NOT respond right now, wait. I promise this is healthy what she is saying. "Love your neighbor as yourself." She can't give away what she doesn't have. If you truly love her you will honor her request.

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like I am training for a match that will never happen.


You are already in the match and counting ceiling tiles. grin

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I need some goals


Become responsible for my own happiness.

Workout x times/week

Revisit hobbies

Read x books/month

Understand why I am so clingy, co-dependent, and smothering.

Make myself desirable.

etc........

Then plan the actions out to achieve them and measure them.

Notice they all are about you.


M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12
Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.