"I can't get close if you're not there I can't get inside if there's no soul there I can't face you, I can't save you It's something you'll have to do"
That verse in particular rings so true for me!
Dunno bout the bit of being here if/when he decides to come back though!
I guess I am still in the "wait for you" department. For now anyway.
My H seems to be doing absolutely terribly this week, like I have never seen before. He has a big week at work and this is stuff he loves that he normally gets excited and energized by. I have never seen him act as down as he is now, at least for this long a period of time. Seems like he may be starting at least on some level to face his inner demons but who knows.
And yes I realize that this is a long haul and that it is his to fix and deal with but it is hard to watch. I struggle with knowing how much/if at all to reach out to him, not to fix or make suggestions but to just be. But then again, he knows where I am if he needs me.
Meanwhile, I am having an insanely busy week which is good. Keeps my mind off thinking too much! The kids and I are having fun and have some good stuff lined up for this weekend.
I got an invitation to join some rollercoaster ride application on FB. I declined - the rollercoaster ride I am on now is more than enough! And right now it seems to be moving up and down at the same speed as a "real" ride.