If you dont know then that is one of your biggest problems.

Come on man! We've been over this. You are still demostrating addictive behaviors in pining for your w.

You need to learn how to deal with this addictive personality in order for you to move on. Alcohol is only 10% of your problem.

Keep on working on you.

If you love her let her go that is what she is asking for. Once you show her that "true love" who knows what she may do.