K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

I did apologize to her. I don't know that it makes any difference at all. But I did none the less. It looks like we will be discussing the holidays here soon. It will be interesting to see how that plays out.

Kevin

[K4D]

Anyways, yes. OM #2 has been confirmed. It is frusturating. I wonder how long that R will last. They are taking trips together.

Kevin

[K4D]

Back to square one again.

Kevin

[PMA_Baby!]

It's called a relapse Kev. If you were still going to AA you would know that. And I'm not talking occasionally. You need a routine regimen.

Why can't you be honest with yourself?

You are an ADDICT. Get the help you need so you can safely move on.

[K4D]

Please get over it with the AA. What does the AA have to do with me and my W getting into an argument about OM #2?

Kevin

[K4D]

W griped me out a couple of times before we finally got into it about OM #2.

It was funny how as we got closer to this dinner tonight, tension just really started rising.

Kevin

[PMA_Baby!]

If you dont know then that is one of your biggest problems.

Come on man! We've been over this. You are still demostrating addictive behaviors in pining for your w.

You need to learn how to deal with this addictive personality in order for you to move on. Alcohol is only 10% of your problem.

Keep on working on you.

If you love her let her go that is what she is asking for. Once you show her that "true love" who knows what she may do.

[K4D]

That subject line is much more accurate than the one before.

Kevin

[Virtually_Handsome]

Just as I thought, W canceled on dinner tonight.

To be fair, I'd say you canceled when you called her a whore.

W griped me out a couple of times before we finally got into it about OM #2.

It was funny how as we got closer to this dinner tonight, tension just really started rising.

Kevin

Exactly why I didn't think it was a good idea. You are not ready. And for that matter, neither is she.

[ClingingToHope]

A friend of mine gave me a book when I moved out, "The Power of Now," by Eckhart Tolles. One chapter dealt with relationships. His point was that many people are not actually in love with their spouses, they are addicted to being in a relationship.

From what I'm reading, it doesn't sound there's much love at all between you two. Try to find out if you really love your W or if you are just addicted to being married.

I'm trying to figure that out. The longer I'm away from her and the more I rebuild my life the less I miss her. I miss my daughters tremendously but not W. At least not the one of the last three years.