After 30 Years!

[Lost Rabbit]

I only dived in and out for twenty minutes last night but it was looking increasingly apparant that S has swine flu! Bless he went to work this morning and was sent home, and docs rang and confirmed it, trouble is that leaves me feeling responsible for passing it on, so flu jab is cancelled for sat, no visiting madam as staff are in contact with lots of kids sat, no tap class as instructor is in contact with lots of kids, just feel that its the responsible thing to do as I wouldnt be too chuffed if someone gave it to me. Popped into the supermarket and got supplies, half of snotty cold ridden uk are already in there so didnt worry about that too much lol. Trouble is that H steam activities is involved with lots of elderly men so we are humming and haaahing about cancelling our date. Bearing in mind a dose of swine flu wouldnt be good for either of us cos of our medical histories. But S bless him is taken all sensible precautions he is a good lad.

So anyway S txt his dad to tell him he'd got the flu, and H rang me as we Im not touching S's bug ridden phone lol. We chatted about what to do, both of us very aware that we have the potential to spread the lurgy about to people who are already vunerable, but when I said its a pain I was really looking forward to friday, H replied "yes so I was I" so we are going to reassess tomorrow morning. So fingers crossed the anti-virals will have kicked in for poor S, who is now armed with a couple of good magazines, tissues and some movies and lying in bed.

Im still smiling from yesterday, Im so chuffed, going was a big 180 especially after I couldnt face the embarrassment of friends party back in June, I wore a beautiful amethyst and diamond ring on my wedding finger, you couldnt miss it, having felt that my wedding ring somehow seems contaminated now I wasnt too worried about not wearing it and also bearing in mind H walked out on me I thought s*d it Im not putting my wedding ring on Ive done nothing to be ashamed off. Infact several times at the funeral he was the one looking a bit on his own not me.

Think my 180's are starting to add up now and showing H that I am a lot stronger, tougher woman these days, and Im sure that is exuding the fact that actually I have now proved to myself that I dont need him, when he had his heart attack I thought my life would end if he died, well guess what I now know it wouldnt. I have very dear friends, a fantastic son and what ever happens in life I will live on. So big smiley faces for success today but sad smiley faces for poor S.