It's not extreme. It's not good, but it's not extreme.
I was re-reading my previous post. Is it too much to say that I want some kind of acknowledgment from H of my pain? That just sounds selfish or something, "I want from H..."
I keep reading here that "it takes two to make a marriage fail". If I try talking to H about our M,I'm afraid to hear what else H thinks my contributions were to it's decline, or hear another reiteration of what he's already said. Or maybe I'm just afraid to face my failings. I guess that's why I can't bring myself to talk to him, really- I'm not sure I can take it, I always feel beat-up afterward. In our case, silence isn't golden- it's very cold.
Our MC said we should have started seeing some kind of progress by now, but nothing's changed. It feels like it's on me to move our M forward, but it's a heavy load and I just don't have the energy.
OK, I'm done rambling. Just feeling down. Blech...
