This is all good advice, but it just isn't the same without my W.

We are doing dinner tonight as a family. I sent her an email and told her that if she wanted to stop over and tuck the kids into bed afterward it was fine. I understood if she didn't, but I told her it is tough to be away, esspecially on a day like today.

She replied and said thanks for the invite and that we will play it by ear.

It wasn't a yes, but it wasn't a no either. I don't plan to talk about our R with her, but I do look forward to seeing her. I miss her, I know I need to temper that feeling and will; but seeing her today took everything out of me and I want to see her again. I promise my fellow DBers that I won't talk about the relationship and will in fact be as confident and happy as I can be.

I want her to see I am strong, but also want her to know that I value her as a mother to our children.


M: 33
W: 31
D: 11, 6; S:2
M: 11y T:15y (H.S. Sweethearts)
Seperated: 8/30/09
Met with Divorce Mediator 10/5/09
Divorce papers filed 11/13/09