It continues to be a hell of a day. I just can't perk up.
My W and I had to meet today to purchase a new cell phone for our daughter (we had to meet because she needed a new phone too). It was tough to remain upbeat in front of her. I didn't fail miserably, but I wasn't as strong as I wanted to be either.
I excused myself to let her finish the transaction because it was tough to be there, looking at the woman I love, not wearing her ring and knowing that we are over.
I didn't tell her any of this. I didn't act sad. I said I had a meeting to get to, which was a lie, but I needed to leave before I did something wrong.
I did invite her to stop over after dinner to tuck the kids into bed and say good night. I don't know if she will accept or not.
I just want this to stop. I haven't broken any DB rules and I don't want to. Thankfully it is a counseling day for me tomorrow, and that will help; but I just want this to be over...but over the way I want. I know that means being patient.
Thanks for reading, just venting. Your comments help so much, so please, comment away.
