After 30 Years!

[Lost Rabbit]

Well I dug deep this morning and got myself all dressed up to go to the funeral, kept telling myself I could do it and I wanted to say goodbye to my friend regardless of what wombatness H was doing!

So arrived in plenty of time, H was standing with my mum, dad, sister and nephew, greeted them and my sister complimented me on the colour of my jewellery, yes its a nice green isnt it smiling at H,(he hates green) lol. Lots of elderly friends came and said hello, most of them not twigging that I hadnt arrived with H, went into the crematorium with my family and H alongside, he motioned for me to sit next to my dad and then sat beside me, it would have been easy for him to put my nephew next to me but he didnt. Couldnt get comfy so several times in the funeral brushed against H, but not intentional.

At the end we queued to view the flowers and it was freezing I was shivering, H seemed a bit twitchy (he does this when embarrased or angy) so having stated I was frozen I said I'd probably make a quick get away as I was going out, not really sure what H said but he intimated that I should come to the afternoon tea, which I replied I didnt want to come and watch him twitch and wiggle in my company so would go, at this he said well its up to you, as if still pushing/asking me to come, so I said I would for a bit but must get away on time.

So sat chatting to my mum and old adopted aunties, had a small sandwich or two and ignored H who was talking to my sister. Adopted auntie asked how life was in a rather knowing way dont know if she did so I just said different and laughed. Sister, Nephew and H came to sit down leaving H the only chair which was at an angle near me.

My mum started talking to someone behind her and H started talking to me, he tugged my little skirt which when sitting down revealed a respectable bit of leg/thigh in snazzy tights and said that it was nice. He said he'd been shopping although he really should have bought the bigger shirt when he sat down it gapped but it was hidden behind the snazzy red tie. My sister pointed out everything he was wearing was new, and I laughed and said "not those as well" meaning new pants. He smiled.

He asked where I was going "out to the pub, Im out every night this week except monday" "yes we are going out friday" I laughed and said "sssh youre being brave the roitveiller will hear you" meaning my mum, and he laughed and said "no she wont" but it was only saturday that he was shock horror at giving anyone a clue we were dating or what ever you want to call it lol! Said to dress smart casual and could he wear a shirt that only one person fitted into, he seemed a bit surprise that I had arranged anything so I pointed that he was invited our for a date.

Laughed about his txt and I said I had read it as "if she ML's to me one my time I'll never walk again" and he said "thats what I wanted to say" and giggled and smiled, well the chemistry was so obviously there even a blind man could sense it, so I kissed all my relatives except H goodbye and left.

Got home safe and sound and felt fantastic I'd done it. Ohh no wedding ring in fact a statement ring that would draw attention to the fact it wasnt on, Im not afraid any more H just better watch out lol!