Then there's back to the issue of parents. Since I never really had any, MIL and FIL over time grew themselves into that position. And now they're gone. I have no social network as everyone I knew sided with whatever story XW conjoured up to paint me the evil one. And as I've said, anyone who can side with her after all she's done is someone I don't need in my life, period.
You have to make a new one. I think my friends here, my new church (X told me he got custody of our old church!), and my theatre friends have really helped me through this. You need to go out and find that network, maybe sports-related or whatever your interests are of course.
Mish, I'll admit it, way way deep deep down, I think I probably still have love for my X. But who he was the first 20 years, not the last 3. Who he is today is not someone I would want to date or be friends with or my kids associating with or anything like that.
D, not our fault but I think some of us here have low self-esteem or don't think maybe we deserve the best in our relationships. I think I've been guilty of that some, plus I'm a caretaker type so drawn to messed-up people. I do really want to work on that, and make sure I don't keep doing that over and over...
