I'd like to say that I have absolutely no idea how you feel...I would really like to say that. Truth is I do. We all do.
You aren't a failure. With all you've given this, how could you be? Did you crumble with all of this happened? No. Did you get out and start doing things for yourself and making new friends? Yes. Is it hard? Yes, Yes, Yes. And look at you go.
You've been separated 16 months and you can't let go....sounds normal to me for all the years you were together. It takes time, but you know this.
I wouldn't dismiss the perimenpausal stuff. Lucky me on top of everything else, I'm there...and it SUX. There are times when I really go over the top emotionally (fortunately not around H....yet) and I hear this little voice (the sane part of me) in my head saying "what the hell is wrong with you?!?" And I can't stop. So, I've learned different stategies and I've got a DR appt for drugs.
I love that you go dancing. I use to and I will again at some point (when I get myself settled).
Don't worry about how long someone else has been "looking" for a mand. it doesn't matter. When you're really ready things happen. That includes things with your H.
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I guess I'm just not strong enough...... I just don't think I can do this.....
Strong enough to make your best choices? Yes you are.
Out of all these "moments" comes incredible strength. Watch.
