Doing my best with my goals. Staying out of H`s way. But he still came after me last night.
Next mediation session is about finance. Ugh! H always dealt with bills-I just earned and paid up. I don`t overspend-he actually told me that last year. But now he`s accusing me of siphoning off funds.
Ironic because I think he`s the one in the best position to fiddle the books but I didn`t say that, just suggested that we discuss the issue with the mediator.
H blocked the doorway but I politely told him to move and got past him.He continued to rant-mainly about money, took my cellphone but I took it off him with smile.
I really wanted the conversation over but H kept on. I acknowledged that he was angry, I tried to change the subject off us but H just got angrier. H threatened to lock me out of our dressing room-no apparent reason, just to be vexatious-but I told him not to be so silly and smiled.
Dunno if suggesting he was silly was great but my heart was thumping and I really didn`t want to react in anger either.
Eventually I said I was going to have a bath. He jumped in then and said no he was having one for a change and I could do without one!I asked when he was having one but eventually he conceded that I could have one.
Boy, have we gone down the crazy ridiculous route...fighting over the bath... and not a hope of sharing one! LOL!
I felt ok after it. I`d stayed calm. I went to bed. and slept!
The whole thing is so bloody exhausting. H of course, would love to see me as tired and sick as him too.
This am he was complaining about the level of care the dog was getting-my kennel cleaning skill(of lack of same!)the dog food I`d bought.
I listened but let it over my head(well did check in with some dog experts at work-I`m doing ok there).
Really, it`s a doddle to let H go at this stage;I need a break from the craziness.
Goals: Continue to sort receipts Continue to avoid H Have fun with the kids
