I don't think W is manic right now. I don't believe she is depressed. She really does seem to be in a good place. The girls were enough to drive Mother Theresa crazy this morning, but W handled it well. She has put on 20 lbs since going on the meds. She still looks great and I tell her so, but she says she feels disgusted with herself.
As for being prepared. I thought about it and realized that I am confused as to what I should be doing now. I do not know what to be prepared for. Last night, she came back with a weeks worth of clothes and the "talk" never came up. I am confused with the way I feel. I don't feel secure in this marriage even though my W is saying and doing all the right things. I can't relax. I'm on edge. I keep waiting for the next shoe to drop.
I see the IC today, hopefully he can help me figure out where I need to go from here. We have our first MC session since the seperation tomorrow, I am hoping that will shine some light for me as well.
