Is this the end of my marriage?

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and then there will be the lawsuits for slander, defamation of character, damage to reputation and interfering with his livelihood, and oh yeah- the inevitable restraining order.

Okay. Message understood. There is no strength or honour in doing any of that.

I feel bad that my W has told various different stories to different people, most of them lies. I just want to make sure people know the truth. It's like she is allowed to say what she wants but I'm chastised (not by you guys but by her) when I do the same. I need to talk too.

I suppose it will all come out in the wash as they say.

I called her this morning to let her know that my D Social Worker (long story but it was the way I actually got fixed time with my D) said that my D has indicated that she is "sad" that she can't spend more time with my W. I called her and left a voicemail to let her know that. I did tell her that she is welcome to see the email if she thought I was emotionally blackmailing her. It was a bad call. It was done out of emotion. I'm not proud of it.

From now on I will do what Sandi2 recommends - wait at least a day and post here.

This is probably one of the most difficult things I've ever had to do. It's like trying to run a marathon with no end flag - you're never sure if you're going to get there so you keep wondering if it's worth continuing. If there was a flag on the road saying '100 miles to the end' or even 'there might be an end' you'd keep going. To keep going though in blind faith sometimes doesn't make much sense. I suppose everybody goes through that.

I need to drop the rope, let the relationship go and move on. Only then will there ever be a chance of a reconciliation.