For those with a WAS...How do you cope?

[courts0818]

The reason I would tell him is bc of our DD. We (I'm going with a girlfriend) might be leaving really early for the airport - around 3:00am so I thought about asking H to stay here that night. But, I don't know. I also thought about telling him so he could spend the time with our DD.

Part of me just wants to go and yes do what he did to me. But, I guess being vengeful isn't right and it will look like I'm intentionally trying to get back at him. And that doesn't really demonstrate that I'm moving forward - that would just show that I'm more interested in getting even. Right?

Moving on to today - I had to ask him to pick DD up bc I worked late. He sent me a text asking how late and when I replied, he texted back asking if wanted to ML (not his exact words). I was like...huh????? So, I texted back - 'what the flip?' and he replied, "I'll take that as no." I do not understand him. Yes, I have been in a good mood lately, but um...I still caught him in a lie a few weeks ago. He lied and said he was staying at a friend's house in Chicago and I found his hotel reserveration. No why would I want to have sex with him??????

And...when I walked in the door tonight, he looked at me and said, "Why is your neck red? Someone been sucking on your neck?" lol...um...I had just scratched my neck, that's why it was red. I also noticed tonight that he started a converstaion about a local child who had swine flu. And he bought some new beer with wheat or something and he asked me to try it. So, in his own way, he was trying to reach out to me.

One other thing - when I first asked him if he could pick our DD up, he didn't know if he could bc he said he had a meeting. After a couple of texts, he said it was an interview. In the past, I would have been all over that - asking where, when, with who and so on, but today I didn't say anything about it. And tonight I didn't mention it either. I am interested, but I thought I would wait a couple of days to ask anything. I guess just to show that his every move is not on my mind. If that makes sense.