We finally made it home from Disney. W usually wants to drive some to occupy her, but when I offered, she said she was fine to let me do the driving, as long as I was not tired.
Before we left, we went to Downtown Disney and D6 and I picked out a Christmas ornament. W and I always did this on our Disney trips, and this had fallen by the wayside sometime.
We had a great day. Lots of joking and conversation between us. One thing I noticed (and have lately) is that whenever I say something and say one of the kids interrupts making it impossible for W to hear me, W always asks what I said. In the past, she would not have done that.
We stopped in my hometown on the way back today and had a quick visit with my step-father (who is the father who adopted me and raised me). My W has always gotten along great with my step-father. It was a pleasant visit. It felt, well, normal.
On the way out of my hometown, we dropped by a doughnut shop (we do not hit these often) to get treats for all of us. W ate hers, and there was a small bit of sugar under her lip. I reached over with my hand and wiped it off. She didn't pull away or flinch. I had forgotten just how smooth her skin was. Never had a chance to reach over to try to hold her hand, but that may have been too much too fast.
We continued talking the whole way home. W brought up her stp-father's birthday party that "we" would be going to in December.
Got home and got the kids washed up and to bed. Hanging out with W in the den.
Here's a question with which I could use some help. I took a lot from Dia's post about telling W about coming back to our bed - and doing so from a place of strength. Gist is I would tell W I wanted her presence and company in our bed, and nothing more for the time being. This way, I could let her know it is safe to return to our bed without me seeing it as a green light for ML. So, given where we are, is it appropriate to have that discussion now or should I let more time pass?
