The hardest thing, no caring...

[LTD]

I've been separated for 4 months now. It doesn't get easier, but it does get less overwhelming. My wife is also very prone to holding grudges (she once didn't talk to her mom for a year of our marriage). In some small way I take comfort in that...she snapped out of that, maybe she'll snap out of this too. Maybe your wife is similar.

Either way, the best thing to do is focus on self-improvement. Are you the person you imagined yourself being? If not, why not? What do you need to do to make it happen? Once you know, take action.