Distracted.
If i may ask.
What exactly caused you to seek an OM?
What exactly did your hubby do?
What did he do when you walked out?

Perhaps you are doing the same things that pushed you further from him as he was pursuing you?

Perhaps think about what it would have taken for him to win you back at that time and reverse it for yourself.

My sitch- http://tinyurl.com/nth74d