I was thinking about some stuff and I realized that I need to get into a better mindset again.
I know that my very difficult childhood help to form me.
Now, I could choose to look at the bad stuff that came out of it - like my low self-esteem and depression. Or I could look at how it affected me in a positive way. I am a much more compassionate, loyal, understanding, easy going person than I might have been if things had been different.
I am going to do the same thing with all this new stuff I have found out about my h. I could wallow in it all, or I could see that it has made me stronger and more resilient.
It is amazing what happens when you use what you've learned. Still stings, I am not gonna lie, but, I am going to be fine. I am going to keep forging forward.
There are not many people that I have let into my life, that I trust with my feelings. But the ones I have let in are beyond what I deserve. With them, and God's help, I am becoming the person I was meant to be.
