It drives me bonkers my H still has the power to make my day a bad one. Still has the power to drive me to tears and make me feel more alone then anyone else in the whole world. I can not remember what it is like to be with anyone else or see a future without him being a part of it. I have spent the last six years of my life loving him and being devoted to him. I took my vows with every once of promise my heart could hold. I have loved him and I will probably love him for the rest of my life. I just want him in my life and home so bad right now and that feeling has not gone away even an ounce since the moment he told me he wanted a separation. I am trying to be patient and wait for him to see what he is giving up. But my patients are wearing thin and I am growing inpatient. this is the exact opposite of what I have been reading in DR book. And I have tried so hard to put the tools to work, but it is hard when the emotions are so high and the hurt is so deep.
t=5.5yrs m=4 kids=4 (8,9,10,&11) I dropped the bomb 10-09 regaining myself in house seperation 9-6-09 divorce final 4-19-10 Moved out 9-17-09
