Trying to save my M. W not really trying though.

[etrain]

I know. I'm panicking over something I can't control. I know I shouldn't think about it but I think about it every minute of every day. It's stupid yet here I am doing it.
Ugh. It just hurts to see W making such a large financial committment to get out of our M.
Every time I think I'm doing okay, something like this happens & knocks me on my butt again.

I don't know if this makes a bit of difference but she filled out the paperwork to cash in her retirement last Wednesday. That was before I confronted her about OM & contacted OMW so maybe things have changed since then. I just don't know.

I won't do anything stupid but I need to calm down before I get home. This rollercoaster ride is hell.