The hardest thing, no caring...

[Fightin4mywife]

brknheart and pit,

I relate. I've been alone for 7 months and am still very much grieving. Sometimes the loneliness throws me into a panic. As a paramedic I always thought these panic attacks were more a mental condition but I now realize how real they can be. It is very disheartening to wake up one day and be totally dispossessed of everything you've worked for, for 25 yrs. Thats wife, kids, home, ranch, etc. I sometimes wonder if I shouldn't have let her have her divorce right off. Thus, even though things would have been more drastic it wouldn't keep lingering. But my conviction to wait on her has actually prolonged it. Now I wonder about that wisdom.

But of course I did the begging and pleading game for several months before I learned DBing. Even then it has been a very difficult transition. I am slowly GAL and learning to detach but in the meantime, God I miss her and the kids.

Hang in.