No you are right Stronger I don't want this person who has changed for the worst. I wan't the loving caring wife and mother of my childern back. That is who I want. I have to really listen this time. I really have to fight the urge and like everyone has been saying and just let go.

On another note she had called me this morning. She said that my son wants me. I get on the phone with my son and its silent. It just reminded me of the times I did use my son just to hear her voice. How he didn't want to talk but I did. I then told her I have to get ready for work and hung up.

In a way I have to take this whole experience in a positive note. Even though I'm walking through hell I have really changed. I know I have and I even have had friends tell me that I have. its only a matter of time.

Me:27
W:24
S:2
D:9 months
M:3 years
Together for 8 years
Bombed : 6/11/09
Moved out: 6/27/09
Found out about her affair 9/7/09
(she started her's at 6/25/09)
Begged n plead 7/25/09
started DB 8/17/09