Don't be sorry. What I ment was, I am not opposed to the idea of wearing them but I am opposed to the idea that once I fulfill this fantasy for him, just like the trampoline, then he is going to want more. Another fantasy will come to mind then he is going to say well you fulfilled the other ones. I guess I am afraid that, considering the recent past with the online porn and the sex texeting, that he is going to want more and then we will be back to where we started. I don't feel comfortable doing some things so I won't do them then.
I am not sure how much longer I can stick things out if things don't start changing soon. I want my M to work but I don't like the way the my H's anger has suddenly started to change. I don't like how he is destroying things. His answer is, at least he is not hitting me. Well that may be true but it is still abuse, it is still emotionally hitting me when my things are being destryed. I had to clean up the mess so my kids would not see it, not him. I am told to go buy a new vaccum and a new book shelf and he will give me the money for it. I feel like he should be the one to go buy it.
Either way he will be getting mad at me soon when I tell him that I am calling the vet about one of our horses. The horse is 30 years old which is very old in horse years. (it is about 70 in human years) and he needs to have more money spent on him than any other horse we have. My H thnks that since he is old that we should not put too much money into him. I say to hell with that and I am going to see to it that the horse is well cared for and that he gets treatment if he is having problems. Needless to say, the vet will be here tomorrow and I will tell hubby after it is over with.
Am I wrong with this? What does any body else say about it?
Me-31 Him-28 D1-9 D2-6 Married 5-06 Seperated 12-07 He filed 1-08 Reconciled 4-08 D dropped 7-08 Bomb dropped about H's activities outside the marriage 4-21-09 Filed for D 4-28-09 Trying to make a go of it 6-09
