How did I get here?

[wanttobebetter]

Still going pretty good. I do not like the feeling of being in limbo though. I have some pretty tough times trying to decide on what to do. I feel like there is another shoe waiting somewhere to drop and we are going every which way now seeing as how we have an apt and a house. She is aware of this and the problems that it causes (kids are always wondering where we are staying??).

I love this woman and really want things to work out but I just do not have the security of a real relationship right now and that is what I really, really want. With all of this going on it makes it tough sometimes to focus on everything else.

While we are a good place in rebuilding our R, the uncertainity of it all is always right there.