Another Waw

[Refuse to quit]

Thanks R2C. I have come to terms with things lately that there is nothing in the world that I can do to fix this. I feel like I have tried everything. I sometimes think that if the tables were turned and I had gone off and things were left to her I don't think she would have given it as much effort as I have. Makes me sad to think of this but I feel like it is true. I know now that whatever happens things will be fine. I worry about the kids all the time but I have kept a journal this whole time and plan to share it with them someday so that they know I did not give up. I hope I never have to share it with them though. Sometimes I just wish she would think for herself and not listen to her family, friends, and lawyers that are trying to steer her by going through with this. I know someday they won't be there to steer her anymore. Court day tomorrow and I go from being nervous to not really caring what will happen. I know that it won't be the end tomorrow. But I welcome the end of this. I just want things to be over. I feel like I have been in limbo so long.
RTQ