Newbie (again)

[mishka422]

No apologies for ranting D. That's what we're here for.

Now....stop the NEVER and EVER statements! Stop them right now. That fatalistic attitude is keeping you where you are. Why do I know this? I USE THE SAME STATEMENTS!

Yes, shrinks open those doors. They open them because the things hidden behind them have to be let out into the light of day. Trust me, it's not pretty and there will be a lot more tears before you get to the happy, but they are all worth it. Every week I walk into therapy with the determination not to cry this week. I cry every time, apologize to the therapist for my breakdown, and she reminds me that I have to let it out and crying is my medium for that.

I too have a lot of things hidden deep inside that I don't share with anyone but she is pulling them out of me one at a time. I am finally opening up some old wounds and that is healing them. They were full of poison that had been sealed inside when I let it scar over. No more. They are getting out. It continues to amaze me how one horrible experience really defined the rest of my life even though I was sure I wasn't letting it. Never try to be your own therapist! It definitely doesn't work.

You are going to make it through this. Give it an honest chance Dylan. Just think....they can't make it any worse than it is and in the long run you will grow and mature in ways you thought were impossible.