Hi Being Me. I've been with this church for about 2.5 years. I have left twice in that period for about three months at a time but returned. Even when I left I kept in touch and attended Sunday evening services there. I didn't leave in anger but a concern regarding my fit with the church. I enjoyed the services so I would still go to things that I enjoyed there. So I was never gone, gone, gone! I'm presently involved in numerous activities there and do know the people. I've often struggled with the feeling that I'm not as committed as others appear to be, that I'm a distinct racial minority in the church and with some aspects of Evangelical Christianity. I've shared all these concerns with my Pastors but again, neither has ever said "Hey, it you ever need to talk about these things or need some guidance etc we'll arrange a time to meet" Sometimes I think they are just too darn busy to worry about a little guy like me who appears to handle things pretty well. Both Pastors have a reputation for caring and are well loved by the church memebers. When I decided to try another church I emailed both of them with the reasons and got a lovely reply for one but nothing from the Lead Pastor. When I decided to return I again emailed them to tell of my decision and got no response from either. It's hit or miss apparently. I think I will just ditch email communication because it's obviously not working well for me. It leaves me wondering things I don't need to wonder about. I'm very sensitive to these kinds of things especially lately. I remember awhile back I saat down with the Youth pastor to try and find a way to involve my girls in the church. She gave me a couple of ideas she would try and then never followed through on any of them! That was not a good feeling either, but I just chose to accept that that was what it was and let it go. It's not like my kids would actually go anyway! Thanks for checking in with me, Being Me.
