Journaling: It seems that W may be moving back in. All signs point that way. She stayed last night and plans to stay again tonight. She says long term goal is to make this permanent.
However, last night we had this conversation in bed: W: "Want to hear a secret?" M: "Sure" W: "I've stopped taking my meds!" <Yes, that is mild panic running through my veins> W: "It's been about a week." M: "My opinion. It's a bad idea." W: "It's just a test. I want to be skinny again. I think I am strong enough to handle it." M: "I agree that you are strong enough, but I think you should do it under the watch of Dr. D." W: "OK. I will call him tomorrow." ...
So she is going off her meds. I feel like I have been cranked up to the top of another rollercoaster and just about to go for another ride. Better hold on tight.
I will admit that I would have never noticed had she not told me. She seems very stable right now. Hopefully, she will call the psych today, I do believe that she can go without the meds (she went 30 years without them). However, I believe she needs to titrate down from her current dosage and be under the close watch of a psych.
