Yeah, ok. My stomach already sank this morning and like a little wuss cried half way into work this morning. There's a lot of doors I have that need to stay shut and my brief experience with these people is that they are like a 4 year old in a different house, they are so damn curious and start going from one closed door to the next to see what's behind them.
In trying to summarize what lurks behind each one, it's what defines me, one bad experience after another, but I need it, I survived it, but I'm sick of surviving, and I'm surely can't put on the show anymore that Im fine when I'm not. I've been doing this crap for 25 years at least and I'm just done. I'm so tired of this one day I'm great and the next I'm crap. Just done. I can't believe I let my guard down so much to get myself in to this situation. I should have NEVER gotten married, and I should have NEVER had kids. Proclomations I made a long, long time ago, and one marriage, 2 kids, and a god damn divorce later here I am.
Sorry, prepratory rant.
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11
