I know its easier said than done at times but its HUGELY important that you look after you.
I too, find this whole business of living with a man in pain so exhausting.Sleep is a very important part of my life now! I`m not sure if its for the escape as well as healing but most nights I get eight hours and am known to nap at every available opportunity! So taxi duty for the kids isn`t the chore it used to be-I can wait for them AND have forty winks though rarely while driving...
MIND YOU! It will make such a difference to your pma.
Mind the kids-as you already are.
Try to ignore his humours. You`ll know your detached when you realise his mood isn`t affecting yours anymore.
That's a big hurdle for me.. ignoring his comments and attitude that is.
~journaling~
Won't be around too much this wkend.. S6 has his big bday party , with 22 kids....yes I know im nuts, but he is so excited. then another party Sunday... Monday going to the local farm.. so we will be busy, which actually will be good.
Thanks all for checking on me.
have a good wkend.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Things have definately progressed, but not in a good way.
Long story short, I caught him in a lie, not a really terrible one, but one just the same and it just spiraled from there.
I was at my wits end yesterday, S6 was asking me if we were going to break up . Boy that broke my heart. I of course told him that know matter what Me and his dad love him to pieces and that would never change. He said "ok mommy" , He's such a sweet little boy.
Anyways, I wont bore any of you with the details, but I told him that This is why something this small can do so much damage because of the past he has with me. The horrible lies that I had to deal with and then when he goes and does it again, well it be small or large, just sets things back so far. He doesn't get that at all.
So many things are running through my mind right now, I can't even think.
I think he will be going away this wkend with his bf to fish, but will be back on sunday. It will be a nice break for me, to catch my breath.
will write more when im able to.
Thanks for the prayers
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
. Boy that broke my heart. I of course told him that know matter what Me and his dad love him to pieces and that would never change. He said "ok mommy" , He's such a sweet little boy.