Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

This week is the 1 year anniversary of the big bomb. It's I had said for a long time that a year would be my breaking point. It would be my limit.

Just a week and a half ago we were sleeping in the same bed, hugging and kissing again for a couple of days. Major pullback is here, but still there isn't the anger and distance that there used to be. It seems like we're roommates again.

I wonder how she can sit in the other room, sleep in "her" room, etc and never have the "I miss him, I want to go be with him moments." I wish we could just be open with what is going on.

I'm at a funny place with all of this. Still pretty detached feeling. I want to ask her when she is planning to go. I can't go on like this forever. I really do think that I'm a good catch for someone. It's just too bad that she doesn't think that it's for her.