I feel like Im starting to hate my WAS

[EJohn]

Since she left, I wanted nothing more than for her to come back. Today I started feeling like I hated her, that she is being self centered, and how could she do this to me.

I did the same in the beginning, just wanting her back no matter what. Then it moved to hate. The hate does subside in time. When you start living your life for yourself, it makes that other part go away....it still comes back every now and again, but much less.